I Choose Love

Hello tiny world,

I mentioned that I have been struggling with my ability to stay consistent. That still stands true but the weather is warm again and I am trying to get back on track. (When it got cold it threw me off course haha) With the things that are going on in the world I find it so hard to concentrate on much else. While I am standing calm in the face of destruction and chaos, I still find that I am unsure what will be happening in months to come. Sometimes I feel alone because I hold beliefs that a lot of people around me do not. Sometimes I wonder if life put me here for that reason, and for that reason alone. While I have always felt I was different than most, it often feels lonely. We currently live in a world that condemns you for free thinking. A constant condescension rains over me and quite frankly it gets old. Just as my opinion is not gospel, I also know this to be true about other people. That is why free thinking does not scare me.

I have been questioning everything for a long time. I mean EVERYTHING. My faith has come into question, my own beliefs of come into question. I even questioned my connection with God, and that one scared me the most. It was more than just being mad at God, it was questioning the validity of it all. I have mentioned before that it was not until I was introduced to the evil in this world that my faith in God grew. That however does not go to say that I believe organized religion is the way to go. I think something sketchy has been happening within the church for a very long time. I believe that the Vatican may not be what it seems. However, I know that God still lives in my heart. If God didn’t I would be afraid, I would worship the darkness and the chaos. Love, and kindness would not be the qualities that chose to have moving forward in this life. God is real, but so is evil and the sooner that you learn that the better.

I heard the other day that there are three types of woke:

1.) The type of woke that believes people like me, the freethinkers, are the enemy of the people. The people that trust that the news and the government are here to help them and that anyone who sways from this belief must be annihilated.

2.) There is a second type of woke that believes the chaos of this world is between ideologies. They believe that the divisiveness is a product of differing opinions. Each side believes they are right and thus violence must ensue.

3.) The third type of woke are the individuals that know what is happening in the world is far bigger than an election. It is good vs evil on a MASSIVE scale, not just in America.

I don’t believe there are words that could explain the magnitude of what is taking place in the world. It is not about Trump, but I find it is more about what Trump represents. People are in pain, and not all people understand why. People are in pain, and for good reason. I believe we live in a world that has forced us to be small. We are programmed to believe that we are not as powerful as we are. We live in a world where there are a select few people that are able to control us because we have let them. We are fed different narrative constantly. So I ask you …. How would things be different if you could think for youself? and make your own choices? How would your life be different.

I believe the way we are living now is not how it was meant to be. It has always felt off to me. If you look at the vast majority of the world you will find that it is just people not having enough money to live their lives as they would want and what money they do make is the money that sucks the life out of them. People are exhausted and unhappy and I for one am trying to find another way. It is not easy when you have spent your whole life doing what you thought you had to do but knowing there has to be something else.

I am choosing in believe in miracles.

I am choosing to believe in magic.

I am choosing to help expose the darkness .

I choose Love

What will you choose?

XOXO

Brittany