I Want a Midwife…My Fiancé Doesn’t
My Fiancé has always known I was a bit different. He has never tried to convince me to be anything other than what I am. He appreciates that I have a deeper way of looking at things, likes that I do yoga, and meditate. He is none of the things but never needed or asked me to be like him. I always sort of joked about having a home birth, just because it was so outside of the realm in which he resided. While for me it may have been a potential option for me, but given his discomfort I knew there was room for compromise.
That is until COVID-19 hit.
When COVID hit I watched the news religiously. I got obsessed for a minute. I recall on clip where people were literally dropping dead in the street in China. I was horrified and so afraid. Rightfully so. However, after the whole “14 slow to spend” event, things just felt a little off to me. I went on the hunt to find new information and wondered if the news was perhaps exaggerating. They were showing overflowing hospitals, and people dropping dead in the streets, but living in downtown I was not seeing evidence of any of this. The hospitals were not fool, no one was dead in the streets, so I had a lot of questions.
I found out a lot of horrifying things but that is not what I want to discuss here. You see, I was not pregnant when I jumped down all these rabbit holes. In fact I was not interested in bringing a child into this messed up world anyways. I mean they are building and have built literal concentration camps all over the world. I never even knew who Fauci was until the pandemic. However his constant inconsistencies, and in light of all of the horrific information coming out about him, I have decided that anything that comes out his mouth his not worth listening to. There is a dark agenda in play, and no one can convince me otherwise.
So when I surprisingly had a positive pregnancy test, I knew immediately I did not want to have this baby in a hospital, especially with an experimental drug that is being pushed like it is. I have heard horror stories of mothers in labor being forced to take the drug in order to get an emergency c-section (which they most likely did not need) and either the mother, baby, or both have negative side effects. So many babies have died from complications from either the mothers getting the shot while pregnant or breast feeding and it is simply not a risk that I am willing to take.
Before the “pandemic” I probably would have never researched or even questioned the procedures put into place for given birth in a hospital. However, I have come to find out that it is far more traumatic than it needs to be, and now even more dangerous because of this mysterious vaccine being forced on all of us. So when I mentioned to my fiancé that I wanted to have the baby in a birthing center with a midwife, lets just say it did not go over well. My fiancé referred to it as “holistic crap”. He has two kids of his own who were safely born in the hospital. I do understand his perspective. I also understand his fear. However, he does not seem to really understand mine. He sees his beautiful healthy children and he doesn’t understand why I would want to go a different route. I had to remind him that his son was and daughter were born 16 and 14 years ago, and things are really different in the world right not. The words just don’t seem to be getting through to him.
We are still discussing the proper care, and I can’t help but feel he is somewhat dragging his feet. I know that I need care, but I am not willing to compromise what I feel is the safest, in order to make him feel at ease. After all it is my body, however I do know that it is his baby. While we are not necessarily fighting about the issue at hand, it does get heated. He likes to say that we are both “Alpha”, maybe in a sense, but really I just feel we are different people and that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. While he prides himself on being an individual and he is not afraid to speak his mind, he also does have a tendency to conform especially when it comes to things that are unconventional. Me wanting a midwife and not having a baby in the hospital is unconventional, and while he is most worried about the safety of the baby, I believe a small part of him is also worried about what people think.
For me, I do not care at all what people think about my decisions. I work through that many years ago. I live my life and base my decisions off of what feels right for me. It is no one’s business how I choose to deliver the baby that is in MY uterus! I am aware that the majority of people especially the people that my fiancé knows will disagree with my stance, just as my fiancé does, however why should that matter to me? I believe that the world is changing, and many many establishment are falling apart because they were meant to.
I have been praying that God will allow this baby to born in the safest and most supportive environment that is available to me and if you are reading this I ask for your prayers as well. I am not against doctor, especially the ones who advocate free thought and medical freedom. I believe that doctors and nurses have done so much. However, I am not comfortable being coerced in anyway when it comes to the choices I make about my health and my body. I should not be shamed for wanting to do something different. While doctors and nursed have a wealth of knowledge, ultimately I know what is best for my body.
No matter your stance on the vaccine, I do have the freedom to take it or not to take it. It is also worth mentioning that in the history of all medical interventions there has never been one treatment or one drug that has benefited everyone. There is no one size fits all when it comes to doing what is best for our health. What works for someone may not work the same for someone else. That is why we should always have the freedom to choose. I do not judge people for their beliefs, or decisions they make regarding their health, and I expect the same respect. I stand for freedom of choice, and critical thinking.
Much love to you
Brittany