Seven Gifts From My Ancestors
I always cry on my birthday. I am not sure why either. It isn’t really a sad cry, maybe it is a happy cry, or a gratitude cry for the fact that I have made it this far. This birthday however is pretty special. I am pregnant with my little one this birthday, and I am so happy she is here to spend it with me. She is truly my best friend… I won’t lie I high five my stomach every morning cause it is so cool that she is in there. I heard her heartbeat today and the midwife said she is doing well. A good doctors visit was really the best present I could ask for. I was scared just a little because I was having some pain, just a little zinger here and there but my body is just changing after all and she assured me everything was fine and that I could go see a chiropractor if I wanted. I am not sure where I stand on chiropractic but maybe there is more to it. I guess I will have to research that. Ultimately I am trying to just stay calm and take care of myself.
I did a birthday meditation today, and for some reason it had be crying so hard!!! It was not a bad cry though. It was a guided mediation that I came across. You are guided to talk to 7 of your ancestors and you receive 7 gifts from them. I saw a few of their faces but most of them were just beings of light who didn’t reveal themselves. It is hard for me to visualize at times so I was not even sure what I saw. With meditations like that my mind tends to tell me that it is not real. Real or not the experience was still rather moving and I felt like I surrounded by a lot of love. Love that I often do not feel like I deserve. That may have been why I was crying so much. I forgot the order in which the gifts were given to me but I did manage to write down all seven of them when I was finish.
Love was the first gift. My ancestor hugged me and assured me I was going my best. She was grateful and told me that I was not alone.
Gentleness was another gift. It was a reminder to remain gentle with my family my friends, my partner and most importantly myself. It was a reminder that I know longer need to be so hard on myself or anyone else that crosses my path, for it serves no purpose for me.
Humility was the next gift and it was a reminder to remain humble if everything that I do for the next year.
Gratitude. I must be grateful for all of my blessings always.
Courage. I was asked to be courageous in my work and to keep moving forward. I was thanked again for the work that I am doing and doing what I can to break certain generational patterns and cycles. I was reminded that I need to continue this work and to remember that I have the courage inside me.
Devotion was another gift/reminder. I was reminded to be devoted to myself, and to my family. (My baby, and the father of my child)
The last one I was handed a sword of light or a sword that was glowing. I was told to remember that while I must practice gentleness I am still a strong warrior and I must not forget that I am already a warrior. I really liked this gift.
It was a beautiful experience and I did like the feeling of not being alone. the world and even our minds are such a magical place, and I am learning to embrace this part of me. It isn’t rational or logical, but its magical and beautiful and I want my life to be filled with more of that. For so long I have been controlled by fear. It is what all of my decisions were based on but that is all changing now. I am becoming a woman that I never thought I would be. Not just because I am becoming a mother, but because this is just a version of myself I never saw. I softer, and gentler that is true. These are traits I never thought that I would use to describe myself but I am still strong.
I am different and unapologetically me and I know what is to come is going to be a beautiful chapter!
Thank you to my ancestors for visiting me today, and reminding me that I am loved and I am warrior.
xoxo
Brittany